I think I finally understand why good guys finish last. 

Out of no intention or plan at all, for some reason this year I’ve become a lot shittier of a friend. By this I mean I selectively answer text messages (about 40% of the time), don’t pay attention during conversation, take no initiative to coordinate plans, spend far too much time on my smart phone while in public, etc. You get the point.

I also moved into my first studio apartment. Living by yourself is AWESOME and makes it SO much easier for me to be a hermit, which I love to do.

So I sound like a great friend, right? Like you want to come hang out with me right now? Of course not!

BUT FOR SOME REASON PEOPLE WANT TO BE MY FRIEND. I’m not saying this in the self deprecating way, I happen to think I am pretty awesome…but it seems like the more I push people away, the more they want to get close to me. It’s like I’m Regina George and all of my acquaintances are a bunch of Gretchen Weiners. I SERIOUSLY DON’T GET IT.

Possibilities:

1. I did get a lot cooler in the last year or so. Hmm not much has changed about me or my life though, other than the fact that I’ve been acting like a bigger bitch.
2. I’m hanging out with lamer people. Again I like the people I hang out with and wouldn’t call them lame…I just happen to treat them poorly. Honestly it’s mostly out of laziness.
3. Technology is ruining our lives. Well yeah, probably, but I’ll take the short term pros over that con.
4. The good guys finish last theory.

I just don’t know what the deal is, but my best guess is #4. We want what we can’t have, right? And I think I’m unintentionally becoming a can’t have. Friends, I’m not that special, and kind of mean, y u so interested?